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The chair was uncomfortable. That was what Serbia kept thinking about, which was stupid, because it was the same chair he'd been sitting in for days, the same polished wood every other country's ass was parked on, except his was wider. It had been built that way, broad in the seat and tall in the back, for someone who used to take up a lot of room, and the brass plate on the desk in front of it still read JUGOSLAVIJA in heavy block capitals that nobody had bothered to change.
Serbia hadn't asked them to. He sat a little forward on the edge of the seat so the empty space behind his shoulders didn't press against him, and today the grain felt like it was digging straight through his trousers into the bones of his hips.
His father had filled this chair. Tata had sat in it like it was a throne and dared anyone in the room to say otherwise, and nobody ever had, and now the old man was a few years dead and the name was a coat hanging off his son's thin frame.
He hadn't eaten since yesterday. Maybe the day before. His mouth tasted like the cigarette he'd smoked on the steps outside and the coffee somebody had handed him that he'd drunk too fast, scalding the roof of his mouth so it felt raw and papery every time he swallowed.
His eye tracked the room in quick, restless arcs, mapping who was where, who was looking at him, who was pretending not to, and he hated that he couldn't stop doing it, the way a dog that's been kicked keeps checking the boots in the room.
Albania, three rows to his left, hadn't stopped staring since Serbia walked in. That red face with the black eagle spread across it like a brand, his whole wiry body a clenched accusation, knee bouncing like he'd drunk six coffees and wanted to throw the cups. Serbia looked away from him and found Croatia instead, which was worse in a different way, because Croatia wasn't staring at all.
Croatia sat with his arms loosely crossed, composed, that red-white-blue face with the checkerboard shield tilted slightly to one side, like he was watching something mildly interesting on television that he'd already seen the ending of. It had been a few years, only a few, and the prick sat there like the whole thing had been a minor traffic dispute.
Serbia's jaw tightened. Somewhere behind Croatia, Germany held his back so straight it looked painful, glasses catching the overhead lights, gold chin lifted, looking at nobody. Russia was off to the right, too big for his seat, that battered ushanka on his white hair and his green eyes half shut like he was falling asleep, which he wasn't, Serbia knew he wasn't.
And Kosovo was across the hall. Serbia could feel the direction of him without looking, the way you feel where a bruise is without pressing it.
Montenegro was three rows back and to the right. He'd moved there on the second day. On the first day he had sat in the smaller chair beside Serbia's, the one that went with the nameplate, the one he'd sat in for years, and on the second morning he'd taken a seat further back and said it was because of the draft from the window. There was no window. Serbia had checked.
Now the little chair at his elbow stood empty and Montenegro sat back there with his red hair combed flat and the gold arms spread across his red face, his gold hands folded on the desk in front of him like a schoolboy trying to look like he belonged to a different class. Brate, Serbia thought at the back of his head, and then didn't finish the thought, because he didn't know if it was going to be a plea or an insult.
NATO stood at the front, reading aloud. Terms, conditions, provisions, the same things they'd waved in his face at Rambouillet rewritten in fresher ink, and Serbia had stopped listening to the actual words several minutes ago because every sentence landed the same way: bend, or we will break you.
NATO's voice was steady and unhurried, the deep resonance of it filling the hall the way weather fills a valley. He was enormous. Serbia had known that, obviously, had stood near him before, but today the scale of him seemed almost grotesque, the breadth of those shoulders beneath the dark uniform, the way the podium looked like children's furniture in front of him.
The white compass rose across his blue face caught the light whenever he turned his head. Everything about him was controlled, pressed, buttoned, aligned, and Serbia wanted to rip one button off that coat just to see something on him be out of place.
Serbia interrupted him. He didn't plan to. Or maybe he did, maybe the words had been building behind his teeth for hours and he'd been waiting for a pause that felt like an opening, except NATO never paused, and Serbia simply couldn't hold it anymore.
"You have no mandate," he said, too loud, his voice cracking at the edges because his throat was dry and he hadn't warmed it up for shouting. "You stand there like you're the law. You're no law. You're a thug in a suit who got big enough that nobody tells him to sit down."
A murmur went through the hall, low and sour, the sound of a room quietly deciding against someone. Serbia kept going anyway, because stopping would mean acknowledging the silence, and he couldn't sit back down and let the quiet swallow what he'd said and make it small.
He said something about sovereignty that came out uglier than he meant it to, something about NATO's members being lapdogs who'd traded their spines for the privilege of standing behind someone else's legs, and even as it left his mouth he could feel it landing wrong, landing everywhere, splashing across seats where countries he might have needed were sitting very still and watching his face.
He threw a glance backward over his shoulder, quick, hating himself for it. Montenegro's gold hands hadn't moved on the desk. Montenegro's eyes were on the nameplate in front of Serbia, the one with both their names hiding inside it, and not on Serbia at all.
The hall went quiet the way rooms go quiet around a bad smell. NATO looked at him. He set the papers down on the podium with a soft, precise sound, squared the edges with his thumbs, then straightened and gave Serbia the full weight of that enormous blue face and the compass rose and the pale, steady eyes beneath it.
Serbia's heartbeat did something unpleasant. His hand on the armrest wanted to grip the wood, and he wouldn't let it.
"Serbia has rejected every term," NATO said, addressing the hall while still looking only at him. The nameplate said Jugoslavija, and NATO's eyes went right past it like it was a coaster, and that small thing stung harder than it had any right to. His voice hadn't changed. Hadn't risen.
"He has broken the October agreement. He has refused each ceasefire. And now he has made his position clear to everyone present."
A pause, and the acoustics carried the silence the way they carried everything else. "I think a demonstration is appropriate. So that no one here mistakes what refusal means."
Serbia expected a declaration. Airstrikes, operational language, the bureaucratic choreography of military force delivered through euphemism.
He was already composing his answer, already stacking the wall of defiant words he'd throw back, when NATO stepped away from the podium and walked toward him, and the distance between them closed so much faster than it should have because NATO's stride was enormous, each step eating the floor, and then the shadow fell across Serbia's face and he had to tilt his head back to keep eye contact and the angle alone was humiliating before anything else had even happened.
He looked up and up, and NATO's shoulders blotted out the ceiling lights, and Serbia's mouth opened to say something, anything, and NATO's hand closed around the back of his neck.
The grip was firm without being painful, and somehow that was the worst part. It was the way you'd hold a suitcase you meant to move somewhere, and the distinction made Serbia's stomach lurch, because it meant NATO didn't think of him as a threat.
Serbia grabbed his wrist with both hands, fingers scrabbling at the dark sleeve, and NATO simply pulled him forward out of the chair. Serbia's boots scraped the polished floor, a loud squeaking drag in all that silence, and somebody in the hall sucked in a sharp breath, and he couldn't tell whose.
He twisted his head and caught the chair behind him, his father's chair, wide and empty with the brass plate glinting at the room, and for one stupid second he thought nobody had ever dragged Tata out of that seat. Tata had been big enough that men like NATO thought twice before walking up to him. Serbia was not his father. Everyone in the room had known that for years, and now they were going to watch him learn it.
NATO brought him to the open floor at the center of the chamber, the space where speakers stood, the space built so every seat in the house could see whatever happened in it. "Pusti me," Serbia snarled, or tried to, but his voice had gone thin and high and the words bounced off the walls and came back to him sounding like what they were, which was fear wearing fury's jacket.
"Get off me, jebem ti, get your hands off me."
He twisted and drove an elbow backward and felt it connect with something that might as well have been a wall. NATO didn't flinch. His other hand found the collar of Serbia's military jacket and dragged it back and down off his shoulders in one efficient motion, the way you'd skin a rabbit, and Serbia heard the seam tear and felt cool air hit his collarbones and made a sound he hadn't meant to make.
The jacket hit the floor. Then the layers beneath it, one after another, NATO's hands steady and impersonal as they stripped him, and Serbia fought for every piece of fabric with the frantic gracelessness of someone who knows he's losing and can't make himself quit.
His undershirt ripped. The sound of soft cotton tearing was obscene in that quiet hall, and then his torso was bare and white and too thin, the shadows sitting deep between his ribs, months of bad sleep and skipped meals laid out under the lights for the room to look at.
He heard Croatia shift in his seat, heard him murmur something to whoever sat next to him, dry and mild, and someone gave a short huff that might have been a laugh. Serbia couldn't look. He couldn't look at any of them.
"Months of this," NATO said, almost conversationally, one massive hand pressed flat between Serbia's shoulder blades to hold him still. "All that noise. And look at you." His thumb traced a rib and Serbia flinched like it had been a lit match. NATO's voice carried without effort, and every country in the room heard it. "You can barely stand."
The trousers came next. Serbia kicked and caught nothing, and then the fabric was around his ankles and NATO peeled him out of the rest of it with the bored efficiency of someone who had decided this would happen and considered Serbia's opinion on the matter about as relevant as the furniture's. Serbia stood naked at the center of the congress hall, his white body shaking in a way he couldn't stop, his cock soft and small-looking between his legs, the red and blue and white of his face burning past anger into somewhere he didn't have a word for.
His eye skidded across the rows. Albania was leaning forward, hands strangling his armrests, his face caught somewhere between vindication and something rawer that Serbia didn't want to look at. Kosovo. Serbia's eye found Kosovo and jerked away so fast it almost hurt, because the expression on that blue face was something he refused to name.
Russia hadn't moved. Russia sat with his heavy hands on his knees, ushanka on his head, green eyes open now, fully open, and he did not stand up.
And Montenegro was looking at the floor. Just at the floor, at the space between his own polished shoes, his gold hands gone from the desk and pushed down between his knees where nobody could see them shake. He hadn't stood up. He wasn't going to stand up. Serbia knew it the way you know a bridge is out before you reach the river, and the knowing went into him somewhere soft under the ribs and stayed there.
NATO sat down on the edge of the speaker's platform, the heavy wood groaning under his weight, and hauled Serbia backward against his chest like he was pulling a child onto his lap to read him a story. Serbia's bare back pressed into the fabric of NATO's uniform, dark and pristine and still buttoned to the throat, cool brass buttons biting little cold circles into his spine, and the lopsidedness of it made him want to throw up. NATO still dressed. NATO still composed. NATO still wearing the war like it was a dinner jacket while Serbia had nothing left on him but the patch over his eye.
Then those enormous hands slid under Serbia's knees, lifted, and spread them wide, wider, until his thighs burned at the hinge and he was folded open in NATO's lap facing the whole hall like something in a butcher's window.
Serbia made a sound, a raw cracked thing with no word in it, dragged up from somewhere behind his sternum, because he understood now. He understood what the angle was for. His legs were held apart and pointed at the rows of seats and every country in the room had a clear, lit, unobstructed view of his cock and his balls and the tight pink furl of his hole between his spread cheeks, everything, all of it, and NATO adjusted his grip and tipped him back a little further so the front rows could see better.
Serbia wrenched his head sideways, eye squeezed shut, chin jammed so hard against his own shoulder his neck popped, trying to burrow into himself, into nothing. His legs trembled in NATO's hands. He could feel the room looking.
It was a physical thing, heat on his skin like sun through a car window, dozens of gazes settling on his thighs and his cock and his ass, and his face was on fire, the red band across his forehead going dark with blood and the white of his jaw blotching pink and ugly.
"Ne," he said. "Ne, ne, nnh, don't," and he hated the begging shape his mouth made around it, hated that it came out wet.
NATO shifted underneath him. Serbia felt it before his brain caught up: the blunt fat head of a cock, cold with something slick, nudging against his hole, and his whole body locked up like a fist.
His hands flew back and clawed at NATO's sleeves. His thighs tried to slam shut and didn't move a centimeter, because NATO held his knees apart the way a vice holds a board, without effort, without interest. Then NATO pushed in.
"Aagh, hhh, f-fuck, Bože," Serbia choked, and it split open and hit the vaulted ceiling and fell back down on him, his own voice raining over the whole room. The stretch was blinding. NATO was thick, grotesquely thick, built in proportion to the rest of him, and Serbia's ass fought it with every clench and spasm it had and it made no difference at all.
NATO sank into him slowly, steadily, with the patience of something that had already decided exactly how deep it was going and had no need to hurry there. Serbia could feel his rim stretched white and burning around the girth, could feel that cock shoving his insides out of the way, pressing against a spot that made his thighs jump and his stomach drop through the floor, and his own cock twitched.
A small, humiliating little jerk. The front row saw it. He knew the front row saw it, because somebody in it made a soft noise like a held-back laugh.
NATO started to move. Long, slow thrusts that rocked Serbia's whole body forward and back in his lap, and it hit Serbia with a wave of nausea what it must look like from the seats: that massive blue cock sliding out of him glistening and shoving back in, his hole clinging to it on every pull, his spread legs framing the whole thing like a stage. The hall's acoustics were made for speeches, made to carry a single voice to the back wall, and they carried this instead.
The wet squelch. The slap, slap of NATO's hips against his ass. The creak of the platform. The obscene little suck every time NATO dragged out to the head and pushed home again. His balls swung with it. His cock bobbed, filling now, half-hard in the worst betrayal his body had ever pulled on him, and a thin string of precome stretched off the tip and caught the light and broke and dripped onto his stomach, and Serbia wanted to die, honestly and simply, the way you want water.
He locked his teeth together. Bit down until his jaw throbbed. Swallowed every noise he could catch, his throat working like he was choking on something, because if he couldn't stop this then at least he could keep them from hearing it, keep the proof in his mouth where it belonged.
A grunt leaked out anyway. Then another one, "hnn, hngh," jolted loose on the thrust. Then a sound that started as a grunt and cracked down the middle into something higher and wobbling, and his eye stung and the hall smeared, and he blinked hard, stupidly, as if the wetness on his lashes might be sweat.
The first sob came out like a cough, short and hitched and bitten off so hard he tasted blood. The second was worse. The third was the one he couldn't stop, the one that kicked the door open for everything stacked up behind it, and then he was crying with his whole chest, hiccuping, gasping, "hh, hhk, hhaa, nnh," ugly noises getting fucked out of him on every stroke, snot running down over his lip, tears sliding down the blue band of his face and pooling on the white, his mouth stretched into a shape he had no control over, lips peeled back off his teeth like a snarling dog that had forgotten how to bite.
He was still being held open. Still being fucked in front of everyone. His cock was still standing up and leaking and on display and he was bawling like a little kid in a supermarket, and the whole hall could see every piece of it at the same time.
He opened his eye without meaning to, looking for something, anything, and it went straight to the third row on the right like a tongue to a broken tooth. Montenegro was still looking at the floor. His shoulders were up around his ears and his gold hands were jammed between his knees and his face was turned so far down that all Serbia could see was red hair and the top of the eagle's crowns, and he did not lift his head. He did not lift his head once.
Two seats from him Russia sat with his jaw working and his hands gone to fists on his knees, and he didn't get up either. Serbia's eye slid off both of them and back to nothing, and the next sob came out of him so loud it squeaked.
"You had so much to say," NATO said against his ear, quiet, almost tender. The microphone on the speaker's stand was a meter away and caught every syllable and carried it to the back row. "In France. At the table. Up there in your father's chair, all those speeches." A hard thrust punched a wet, hiccuping yelp out of Serbia's throat, "ahk," and NATO waited for it to finish echoing before he went on. "And this is what was under it the whole time. Listen to yourself."
"M-molim te," Serbia sobbed, and he didn't even know what he was asking for anymore, and NATO's hand shifted on his left knee to get a better grip, and his thumb dragged up the side of Serbia's face on the way and caught the strap of the eyepatch. Serbia felt it go. The elastic snagged on his ear for half a second, tugging, and then it slid free, and the patch dropped onto his chest and slid down his sweaty stomach and landed on his thigh.
The double-headed eagle lay face up on his skin, and his blind eye was open to the room, milky and dead and rolling loose in its scarred socket, that pale wrong iris staring at nothing.
The noise that came out of Serbia was something an animal makes caught in a fence, a howl dragged up from the bottom of his lungs, because this was the thing. This was the one thing he never showed anyone, more private than his skin, more private than the soft stupid insides NATO was currently fucking open, and the whole hall was looking at it while he sat impaled on NATO's cock with his legs spread and his face running.
NATO caught his jaw. Turned his face forward. Held it there, square to the rows, so everyone could get a good look. Serbia's good eye was screwed shut and streaming and his dead eye hung open and empty and his mouth was a wrecked wet hole, gasping "nnh, nnh, hnnh, nnh" on every thrust, and the pace was faster now, NATO's hips driving up into him hard enough that the slap echoed off the walls like somebody clapping slowly at the back of a theatre.
Serbia's cock bounced against his belly, fully hard, slapping wet against his skin, dribbling, his body's treachery complete and total and lit up under the chandeliers for the entire assembly to admire.
He came without any warning at all. His spine bowed, his thighs locked rigid in NATO's hands, his cock jerked and spurted up across his own stomach and chest in thick white streaks on white skin, and the moan that tore out of him was long and broken and wrecked, "aaah, ahhh, haaah, hhh," and it echoed, Bože, it echoed.
NATO gave a few more deep, deliberate strokes through it and then pushed in to the root and held there, and Serbia felt him finish, felt the hot thick pulse of it flooding him, filling him, and that was what set him off again, a fresh wave of sobbing so hard his chest seized and he couldn't get air.
It leaked out around NATO's cock. He felt it slide hot down his crack and drip onto the wood, pat, pat, and that small wet sound was the loudest thing in the room.
NATO lifted him off. The cock slid out of him with a filthy sucking pop and come gushed after it, and NATO set him down on the platform the way you'd put down a file you'd finished reading, then stood and tugged his cuffs straight and smoothed the front of his uniform with one flat palm.
There was a damp patch on the dark cloth over his thighs and he looked at it like it was a spilled drink and nothing more. Nothing on his face looked like guilt. Nothing on his face looked like anything.
Serbia lay on the floor of the congress hall naked and shaking, wet with come and sweat and snot and tears, his legs still trembling open in the shape they'd been held in because his hips didn't remember how to close. The hall was silent, the thick kind of silent that sits on your eardrums like water.
Somewhere in the rows Germany sat with both fists pressed into his thighs, knuckles bone pale against gold, jaw locked, staring at a fixed point on the far wall like it owed him money. Croatia had uncrossed his arms. Albania had sat back. Nobody moved. Nobody said anything. Nobody came down to the floor.
Serbia's hand crept across the polished wood. His fingers bumped the eyepatch where it had slid off his thigh, and he dragged it to him and pressed it back over his dead eye with hands shaking so badly the elastic kept slipping off his ear, again, again, until it finally caught and held crooked.
Then he lay there under the empty chair with the brass plate still shining JUGOSLAVIJA at the room, one eye covered and the other still leaking, breathing in shallow hitching gulps, and curled slowly onto his side with his knees drawing up toward his chest.