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"Do you remember when you loved me, before the world took me astray. If you do then forgive me and make the world go away.”
Tara woke up later, much later, than she planned. Because she fell right asleep she didn’t set her alarm clock. She also woke up facing a bare, toned chest that she knew very, very well. When she fell back asleep she was facing the window. Now that she was waking up she realized Jax was still in bed with her and very much awake.
Because her line of sight was right at the Abel tattoo on his left pec, she pretended to still be asleep so she could enjoy the view before coming to her senses. One of her favorite parts of has was his chest, and that part groin that looked like a V.
She also took a few minutes to enjoy the scent of the pheromone cologne that he always wore. She heard a chuckle and looked up to see Jax catching her gazing at his chest and breathing in his scent.
“Do you like what you see?” he asked in that low, husky timbre that he knew affected all of her senses. It was hypnotic and he knew exactly how to use it to lure her into his web. She knew exactly what he was doing and it was pitting her self-control against her hypersensitive pregnancy-fueled hormones.
“Yeah…I need to take a shower and put on fresh clothes.” She cursed her pale complexion because it always betrayed her and she turned beet red and became flustered with embarrassment.
“Hold up, there’s no hurry, you have some where to be?” Jax held onto her and good gods she just wanted to kiss him. She told herself not to look up and whispered, “No, I’m off today.” She figured it was probably a better idea to stay clothed than go shower.
That was their favorite place after the bed to make love. She was pretty sure that she would lose all control if she even tried to turn on the shower with Jax in the vicinity so she looked up at him while lying flush with his chest.
That was her first mistake. As she looked up, he looked down at her and placed his right hand possessively on her belly. He kissed her gently but it quickly turned heated.
Jax broke the kiss and looked at her with that familiar softness she missed so much. “God, you are so beautiful, Tara. I am so sorry for everything I’ve done. I love you so much. Please forgive me.”
Her mind went to hell and six months of frustration took over. “Jax, it’s not that simple. This won’t fix what went wrong in the first place.”
“Tara, please just give me a chance. I really want us to be a family.” he pleaded.
Ok, I’ll put together some time alright?, We can see where it goes", Tara promised. Jax gave her a strange look, as if she struck a nerve full of déjà vu.
May 1995
Tara was still coming down from the high of the first orgasm she had ever had. Jax was staring at her in a way that made her want to do all of that all over again, too. From the way he was kissing her, she knew he felt the same way.
Suddenly, Jax’s home phone rang and he went to pick it up. It was Clay telling him that he was needed at the clubhouse to deal with some club business since he was out of town with Gemma. Jax knew “club business” meant he couldn’t take Tara with him.
He felt bad having to take her home right after having sex with her for her first time. As he came back to the bedroom, he ran his hand through his hair. Tara looked at him, “What’s wrong, Jax?”
“Clay called and they need me to go to the clubhouse to deal with some club business since they are out of town. I can’t take you with me. Is it ok for me to drop you off at home?”
Tara had a bad feeling that this was becoming the teenager cliche she worried about. He took her virginity and now it’s time to dump her at home. She tried not to look upset but didn’t succeed.
Jax saw her face and instantly came over to kiss her. “It shouldn’t take too long. I promise I will call you right when I’m done. It shouldn’t take long”
Tara nodded and got dressed, she would shower when she got home. As Jax dropped her off, he grabbed her and pulled her into a deep kiss. “I love you and will call you as soon as possible.” Tara smiled weakly and went into house and straight to her bedroom to get ready for a shower.
Gemma and Clay knew that Tara had been at the house with Jax the last two nights thanks to some covert drive-bys done by a prospect. Gemma’s female intuition knew that by the third night, Jax would have bagged Tara. The next step was to get him away from her and back to the clubhouse.
When Jax got to the clubhouse, there was a SAMCRO party in full effect. He went to find one of the guys and Tig came up to him and told him to grab a beer and they would do some shots. Jax was confused. “Clay told me to get back here for some ‘club business.’ What’s going on except for a party? I was with Tara and if this is just a party, I’m leaving.”
Tig knew he had to keep Jax there per Gemma and Clay’s instructions. “Hey, just hang out for a minute.” Jax started getting suspicious when a lot of out of town charters started showing up.
Then about forty-five minutes later, Clay and Gemma came out from the chapel with a surprise.
“Congratulations, you’ve been voted in and are now officially a Prospect!”
Jax couldn’t believe this was happening as he was handed his kutte. He had had several shots and at least a six pack of beer when he realized he didn’t see Opie. He needed to find him and have someone go get Tara since he had so much to drink.
As if the universe was listening, Opie walked in the clubhouse doors with Donna…and Tara. He was so happy he practically ran over and lifted Tara off the floor spinning her around. She screamed and then laughed while kissing him. Everyone in the Clubhouse started cheering them on.
Everyone except Gemma.
Jax didn’t leave Tara’s side the whole night. He actually ducked out of his own party by telling Donna to cover that Tara was sleeping over at her place. He then pulled Tara back to his dorm room.
“What is this place?” It looks like a closet.”
Jax laughed, “This is my dorm room. It’s where we crash when we’ve had a party. He smiled wickedly. “And this is the perfect party; a slumber party, but you won’t be sleeping.”
Tara definitely did not sleep. She was sore in all the right places and finally had to push Jax off when she almost passed out from absolute exhaustion.