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“I believe it's meant to be, darlin'. I watch you when you are sleeping. You belong with me. Do you feel the same? Am I only dreaming or is this burning an eternal flame?”
Tara woke up with a start in her bed. She was confused at first and then saw a very familiar tattooed arm wrapped around her waist. Then she saw a very familiar hand that was resting on her pregnant belly. She glanced at the vanity chair next to her bed and saw his kutte thrown over the back. Holy shit did she have sex with Jax and not remember it?
She remembered being dizzy when they got out of the car. He carried her in the house and laid her on the bed, then got her a glass of water and her nausea meds. She was so tired that she thanked him and just drifted off to sleep in her dress thinking that he would let himself out.
If she wasn’t carrying around a human beach ball she would have jumped out of bed. She knew then that they just slept. She was not mad about it but those boundaries were feeling really fuzzy right now with how good he smelled and she knew that he looked just as good because she could feel his toned bare chest up against her back.
Jax moved behind her and pulled her closer. Part of her wanted to freak out but the tired, pregnant part of her said fuck it and snuggled into him and fell right back asleep. She would deal with the emotional fallout later. Right now she just wanted to sleep and be held by the man that she still loves.
May 1995
Tara went into her house after Jax dropped her off. She was overwhelmed by what happened at dinner. She was hoping that she would hit it off with Gemma but that didn’t go as planned. At least she wasn’t outright hostile but it was obvious that she would not accept her as Jax’s girlfriend.
She wasn’t cut out for the MC life. What did that even mean? And what does SAMCRO really do? That didn’t sound reassuring either.
When Jax picked her up the next morning, she wanted to ask him so many questions but figured everything that needed to be said, needed to be said by him. When they got to school, he was quiet but pulled her into the sweetest kiss. “I don’t care what they said, we are not breaking up.”
The next several weeks were the end of school so Tara was caught up in studying for finals. Jax did the bare minimum of studying and was maneuvering around his mom’s insistence that he should break up with Tara.
Gemma was frustrated but Clay told her to, “Let the kids figure it out.” He was convinced that Jax just wanted to, “pop her cherry and then he’ll be onto the next girl because the thrill of that chase will be gone.” Gemma didn’t want him necessarily doing that to Tara, of all girls, but saw the logic in Clay’s take.
This would help build and solidify his MC pussy hound persona. He would hit and quit it once he got the prize. She didn’t want to think about Tara as the virgin sacrifice in this scenario so she closed off that part of her conscience. She finally told Clay that she would follow his lead and let boys be boys.
The last week of school was so hectic that Tara was so happy on the last day. Jax snuck up behind her at her locker she nuzzled into her neck as he hugged her from behind. “Guess what, babe.”
Tara looked at him, “What?” He gave her a rakish grin. “Clay and Gemma are out of town starting tonight for five days. The club is doing a run to Portland and they are adding some days on for their anniversary.”
Tara looked at him expectantly, “And?” He kissed her, “We have the house to ourselves. You are looking at a vacation at Casa Jax. All the movies, popcorn, and soda you want.”
Tara looked at him laughing. “Seriously? Oh, come on! Your mom is leaving you unsupervised for five days and nights with no strings attached?”
“Well, I did promise not to have any wild parties. They are cool with you coming over for movies. I told Opie to bring Donna over for movies too. I am not telling anyone else though because they will think it’s an open invite to show up and start a party.”
She laughed loudly and Jax laughed too. “Hey, I’m not kidding. Don’t tell anyone or it will turn into a real-life version of Animal House.”
Tara was beyond nervous heading to Jax’s house. She was nervous because they would have a house to themselves for five days. She had decided she wanted to have her first time be with Jax, but there was never any good time or place and she refused to lose her virginity in a car like some 90’s version of American Graffiti.
Now she had five days (and nights) of opportunities and was terrified again. Tara had gone to Stockton and hit up Victoria’s Secret with baby sitting money she saved. She had at least a weeks worth of some seriously sexy bras and panty sets so she would make sure to have them on each of those five days in case this actually happened. Even if it didn’t, at least she had some cute underwear.