Honestly, it shouldn’t be nearly as surprising as it is. Nearly as distressing as it is.
Nearly as —
You know what you are. You know what Sean does. When Sean’s let out, everything falls apart. He dooms the people you both love. He rots the world you both love. You want to scream, or maybe laugh, or cry, but—
The only way out is to smile! Be happy! Because if you let Sean see too clearly, it’ll all burn down. And you’ve done your best, haven’t you, to prevent that, keep them blind? Not well enough, it seems-
BUT!
It is not your fault that Sean wasted the day. It is not your fault that Sean’s useless, as always, at keeping those you love safe.
It is not your fault that Sean couldn’t be quicker.
It is not your fault that Sean couldn’t have let himself die for May, because he did not even realize she was in danger. But you knew.
You knew, because of course you did, because Sean is nothing other than a bad luck charm.
That’s why your purpose is to prevent this sort of bullshit from happening. But people have to pry at you, and it has to draw him out, and they have to just let it happen because they don’t get it at all, and no one can get it, or understand them, and you don’t get it either—
…Anyway! You don’t care about all that! You! Have to keep eeeeeverybody safe! That’s your purpose!
Well. As safe as a defective human like yourself can possibly achieve. There’s no world where Sean can do this, their whole life has been like this, after all. You feel nauseous. Nauseating. You can’t close your eyes.
All you're going to see is May’s corpse, fresh and horrifying. All you’re going to see is what could happen again if you don’t shove Sean out of the front seat of the body they call “ours”.
What could happen if you don’t lock them in Wonderland and throw away the key. The Witch and the others could deal with them for just a while longer, right? They want what’s best for this wretched vessel, too.
That’s why it has to be like this. That’s why you’re laughing and crying at the same time, though, nothing’s actually that funny, and you and I know it.
So I’ll make sure you’re blinded.