I'm high on you
(Sounds romantic, right?)
You numb the pain, and numb my brain
I return to your arms, when the world falls apart
Lose myself in the haze
((If it seems too good to be true it probably is, huh?))
I hate you
(I don't mean that)
I lash out, I push
Will you return, no matter what?
(Please see, I need to know I'm worth returning to)
((That's probably a red flag, but you don't see that either))
I want you
But wanting isn't enough
It was the beginning of this, of us
But now, desire is gas on the fire that burns us to the ground
Sparks rise, little fireworks against velvet sky
((Every night, we fall between your sheets and watch the show))
I need you
What happens when your reason to live
Walks out the door?
We held each other together (Poorly.
I am glad you're getting help - l bitch cause I don't want to admit I'm scared)
((I wish we could start over. I'd go through it all again, if you could be by my side))
I miss you
I hope you're doing better
Your brother said you got a therapist, went to rehab
Were you recovering from the chemicals
Or me?
((Don't answer that, I couldn't bear to hear))
I love you
And I'm sorry for what I did to you. (You apologized, too, earlier today.
You looked healthy)
We were fucked up. Are still, a bit. but we're trying
(Not how we used to, stewing in ourselves, but really making the effort)
((Can we get a second chance to love, now that we aren't killing ourselves?))